Finally got the time to get back to this blog again. It’s been sometimes not to have any particular moment which I can really write. Basically for the past 5 weeks have been filled with new challenges as well as lessons for me to learn.
As soon as I have finished my degree course, it is a very normal attitude just to go down and look out for job out there. Indeed I really wish and hope to be able to become financially independent and planning to stabilize my life by building up career as well as look to build up relationship.
No doubt that I have been putting myself some pressure to get good starting job and another reason is to have a stability for my life before entering relationship. For the first three weeks, my life has been filled with running around building networking and e-mailing as well as asking people around so that the right job can be found.
By the end of three weeks after finishing the course, finally i felt both physically and spiritually drying up. No doubt that I didnt walk properly in my spiritual walk with God and to large extent has been moving on my own accord. Starting on the fourth week, finally I decided to just sit down at home and had a re-cap on what I have done and confess to God that I have been running around and felt very very tired.
By His grace that I could feel His comforting hands and His love that restores my soul and body. Finally I decided to use the fourth week just to pray, to read the bible more than the first three weeks, spend time resting in Him.
Somewhere in that week, actually I received a devotional teaching which says "How can the child enjoy the blessing of food when he is running around? Unles the child learn to sit, he will not be able to enjoy the blessing thus have the energy to walk, run and play"
That passage indeed reminded me that I have not been consulting the Lord regarding my career. I was indeed planning to get the job earlier so that I can move onto the relationship direction. Really as i was taking time to rest, that was the moment when I started to get interview from companies which I didn’t send my resume to. That taught me one thing. And that also going along with the bible passage taken from Psalm 127:1-2==> Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; Unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat bread of sorrows; for so He gives His beloved sleep.
I thank God for lesson in my life as I am moving to a new phase. To look at logical point of view, I am indeed starting my life from empty handed right now. It is challenging and exciting because I am about to work and earn cash for my own life. I just hope and look forward to build up good life according to His grace and favor and it is my prayer that I will have opportunity to walk closer and closer with Him.
Coming to relationship issue, I am glad that she is more and more open to her thought and what she really feels and choices that she ought to make for herself as well. At this time, what i wish to have is God’s favor that allows both me and her have a better communication, more stable relationship, joyful, exciting and loving situation. Currently both me and her are having distance barrier which make us unable to get to meet up in person very often.
So yeah… this moment really requires lots of patience, faith, understanding, good timing and also favor from God. I do look forward for a better weeks ahead and more exciting journey with the Lord again. Amen… =)
